When I grow up I want to be a writer….or a teacher. I want to be skinny. And I want to be a good parent.
These are the current things on my wish list right now.
If I want to become a better writer, I need to keep on writing. If I want to become a teacher, I need to finish school. If I want to get skinny, I need to stay active. And If I want to become a better parent, I need to give my children the attention they deserve while they still consider me their best friend.
It’s that simple, right? It should be that simple. I shouldn’t be lazy with life. I should punch myself in the face for getting to this point. But, I must stay positive. I’m in control of my own life. I’m a grown woman and I know what I must do to accomplish the things I want. And honestly, the steps aren’t that hard. It’s just taking the steps to DO THEM to get me where I want to be.
As I’m writing this, I still don’t know if I’m all talk. One part of me, the weak part, knows that these are just words and I won’t follow though. The other part, the stubborn as hell part, will not accept failure and will fight for the life that I, and my family, deserve to live. I’m torn. I’m insecure. I’m selfish. I’m loving. I’m amazing. I’m brilliant. This is me. My true colors.
I’m human. I’m woman.
Hear me roar.
PS. Writing this has given me the strength to win the battle for today. This morning was a lazy one, but this afternoon is going to be full of excitement, and life….and love towards my children.
One day at a time…
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